ive gotta get used to it.

i must ..

im being unfair to shirlin and im gonna stop whatever i have with her.

i like her.. but it hasnt come to a point where i can be WITH her.

i will not be with her as long as i know tt i cant be able to put 100 percent of myself into it.

i wanna be fair to her. not gonna drag this on anymore longer.

from these past few days, i can tell that she cant take this shit anymore soon. so im gonna end it.

i dont want, but i must.

my world's fucked up yar??? i hate myself. sometimes i feel like the biggest bitch in the whole wide world.

maybe i am..hah. love sucks.